Too perfect not too...

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So I have never been a really religious or very spiritual person, I do however believe in fate and everything happens for a reason.  I have never been a very superstitious person, and do not believe in mediums and card readers.  However, at some point way back, I must have signed up for the free daily horoscope  emails from astrocenter.com and sometimes by accident or not, I may read a few or so and since this mornings was so on, I have decided to share it...
I am a Sagittarius:
"inspiration from recent religious and spiritual occurrences could have you writing down accounts of your experiences, perhaps with the idea of someday publishing them.  Your concentration could be well be intense, as writing for you today may not only be creative, but therapeutic as well.  It'll also help to attend classes or workshops or simply to discuss the subject with a friend.  Knowledge is essential now."
I am having such a hard time today, posting something that makes sense.  I have so many ideas, so many different thing I want to say, I think I have "written" about 4 different posts in my head today alone.  I use to have a journal, before laptops and computers, one with a cute little key, the type you would hide under your mattress from your brothers and sisters.  I then moved on to a more adult type journal, but unfortunately the reason I had to stop was because I can no longer write or read very  well. I finally started this blog, with the main intentions of awareness, no sympathy or empathy warranted.  I have a wall up, a very tall and very heavy wall and as I continue posting, I am hoping that by letting out emotions and feelings, people may see me differently, not the "beast" or the "ice princess ", I have been referred to as in the past.

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