Positive vibes...

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I woke up this morning wincing in pain, feeling sick and awful.  All I could think about was the party for my first nephew, Gio, today.  There was no way I was gonna miss his party.  So many parties and even good friends weddings, I have missed due to work or being sick in the hospital or in my bed. Tomorrow, I will be admitted for at least 3 days, so I was determined to celebrate and receive positive energy from friends and family today.  I got some medication and fell back to sleep, when I woke up I still didn't feel great but once my peanut (my niece) knew I was awake she came up to "play" and just seeing her in her party dress, a smile was instantly on my face.  At this point I decided I was going to this party, Li Li helped me with a fashion show to decide what I was gonna wear.  Yes a 3 year old picked out my dress today, solely based on the fact both mine and hers both had crinoline.   I cant even remember the last time I wore a dress and jewelry, don't think my family could either, although I was so self conscious about tubes and bags showing, I got many positive compliments. 




Although I  was still not feeling great, I was happy about my decision to attend.  I was amazed at how well my sister and her friend had decorated the lawn, with the theme of construction.  Pictures will be posted on my Facebook, probably in the AM. Watching the kids play just sent such a positive vibe to me. Loved watching the kids as they laughed and yelled and played.  Although I had a headache and still in pain I tried to keep up with them taking as many pictures as I could.  Once the kids got there helmets, tool belts and inflatable hammers, there was so much laughing as the kids ran around hitting all of us with the hammers.  Just watching them enjoy themselves took my mind off of other things. The kids hitting the piñata, and diving for the candy, definitely brought back memories of my childhood parties.  Even as exhaustion was creeping up on me, I was enjoying watching the Tonka truck cake being cut and the presents being opened.


Still not feeling great but as I reflect Im glad I went to the party, being around positivity definitely helps.  Hoping that this positive energy will be conserved and used to get through the next couple of days.  Hoping to have maybe some answers Tuesday. 


Will probably have a lot of free time, hoping to start posting about my past and the obstacles I have over come.................

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